Tonight is the last night of Warrior training. It is bittersweet, of course. This program has definitely been a change up
from my normal and my comfortable.
Sometimes that’s just what we need to do, right? I loved this program and felt that it pushed
me to try a lot of new things. I also
met some really amazing friends in my co-warriors. Let me tell you, these people rock! As does Todd, who runs the program. The support I’ve received from my warriors
has been a bit mind boggling. We are all
at very different levels of fitness and looking for many different results from
the program but we are indeed a team. I
would recommend this program to anyone that is looking to add some variety and spice
to their training, as long as you don’t mind getting a little dirty and being
out in the elements. If you want to be
pushed to the next level, this will definitely do it.
Next week is a free for all which will be weird. Molly and I don’t return to Scott until the
18th so I have a week of no one telling me what to do. I have been missing the gym, familiar faces,
the treadmill and some of the classes I learned at Biggest Loser Resort. I’m looking forward to doing some of the old
goodies next week. Maybe they will
remind me how this all got started in the first place. There are days this summer that I’ve just
felt like I’ve been on auto pilot, especially with my cardio workouts. I haven’t pushed like I know I could. I just get on the machine and go through the
motions like a robot. It’s showing on my
scale, my mindset and my overall attitude.
I have become a bit complacent.
This is no good and needs to stop.
It’s been 2 ½ years on a journey to a healthier Lyndee and well, some
days I just get tired of it. There’s the
truth that I never want to admit. It’s
not easy. I’m not whining, I swear. No one ever said it would be easy and I know
that nothing worth having comes easy.
But some days I just wish it wasn’t so damn hard to stay on track!! I also know that short of having my jaw wired
shut that this all lies on me. I chose
this. I wanted this. These are my choices, good and bad. I have to live with them. I guess that’s why I haven’t been writing as
often lately. I’m not proud of some of
the choices I’ve been making with my food and portions. I’m not proud of the fact that I’ve gained
back some of the weight I lost while I was in Malibu. I’m not proud that I have been caught up in
life and all the demands that come with it and have pushed myself as a priority
to the side. I haven’t kicked it to the
curb or anything but I haven’t been zoned in like I was at my most successful
times. I’ve been distracted and it’s
easy to push healthy eating and workouts to the back burner when life gets
hectic. I just have to remind myself how
important it is to keep improving, getting stronger, finding that mental fire
again and start conquering the scale like I know I can if I take the right
steps. It’s funny, all the times that I had
heard people from Biggest Loser or those that have lost incredible amounts of
weight, when they would start gaining it back I just couldn’t comprehend
it. I didn’t understand how someone could
go through all that hard work and then just “throw it all away” and return to
their old habits. I guess I shouldn’t have
been such a judgmental witch. That
karma, she’s always knocking on our door, isn’t she? I don’t want to be another statistic and I know
that I need to get it back under control as soon as possible. Motivate, dominate, destroy.
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