One year ago today

It is hard to believe that one year ago today I was flying into California and about to start my month at the Biggest Loser Resort as a Year of You winner.  It seems like yesterday, yet so long ago.  Isn't it weird how that can happen?  So much has happened in the last year that it seems like it was forever ago yet I still remember every vivid detail of the dream month I spent in Malibu, April, 2012.  It was by far one of the best months of my life and helped transform my body and mind.  I made some amazing friends and learned so much about myself. I can't believe it's been a year.  Oh what I wouldn't give to go back for April again.  It's so easy there. I mean, it's the hardest thing I had ever done but there is no every day worries.  My husband took care of the bills and the kids. I didn't have to work or plan meals or cook or clean or run errands. I just had to be me for 30 days and focus on workouts and eating and loving myself.  That was it.  And it was so glorious.  If you remember my post the day I left, I vowed to be FEARLESS.  And I was. 

There have been many times this year that fear has crept back up on me but I continue to try and knock it out.  I think that ties to my 13 in 2013 goal.  Doing 13 races one of which is a 13.1 mile 1/2 marathon in Puerto Rico.  Does the thought of it almost gag me out with fear? Oh you bet your butt it does. But then I remember what it felt like to have a month where I was fearless and I know that I can do it again.  My year of me didn't stop in 2012.  It has transformed and morphed and changed but 2013 is my year too. What would you do if you weren't scared?